The Burden

My burden is great, Lord.
The weight is so heavy I’m struggling to move forwards,
It’s crushing my body and soul.
I feel trapped by this very large load,
I don’t want it.
It permeates my very being,
Every moment of every day.
I breathe it,
Smell it,
Hear it,
Feel it.
Touch it.
There’s no escape.

One man offloads his burden,
I now struggle to carry it.

I didn’t ask for this.
I did nothing wrong.
All I have ever done is love, and care, and carry an open heart.
I sometimes think I love too much.
Perhaps my openness and optimism is easy prey to predators?
But my love has been abused.
I have been deceived by someone so close.
I have been robbed of my peace of mind.
I have been betrayed, like you, Lord.
It hurts.
Everything is tainted.

The pain is great.
But it’s not a pain in my shoulders.
It’s deep in my heart.
This poor heart is so purple and bruised.
Perhaps I am ill?
But no, it’s not physical.
The pain is so intense it makes me tremble.
How did you feel Lord when someone close to you betrayed your trust?
How did you feel about the lies?
How did you feel about the shattered trust?
How did you feel Lord?

You feel my pain.
You share my torment.
You know the situation.
You help me carry my burden.

Forgiveness is the key.
Trust is the answer.
But these are hard things to offer,
When the path is rocky and the pain so cruel.

Help me take your hand.
Soothe my troubled heart.
Cosset my tired frame, and help me to lean on you.
Together we will make it.

But the road ahead is not clear or easy, Lord,
The enemy is still there.
Attacking me, troubling me, trying to destroy me.
I need your staff and comfort.
Without you my life is nothing,
The future futile.

Give me your strength to make it through,
Give me your hope,
Renew my faith.

Help me retrieve my open heart and optimistic essence of being,
Without these things I am barren, a lost soul.
If I have no love I am nothing.

Love never gives up.
Love is eternal.